Not a Pretty Girl

So, I'm thinking of selling my E-an. I really love her and she's gorgeous, but I think she's a little too stylized for the character I have in mind. Some of the Souldoll double girls have really caught my attention lately (Philippa, Celina, and Queena), though I don't necessarily like their face-ups. Plus, I want to get an Akando eventually, but I'm afraid the Souldoll girls would be too short. Bah.

Just posting to say I'm alive. Lots of stuff going down (it's finals) so I'll expound it upon it later, but in the meantime:

-I was in a car wreck.
-James and I broke up.
-I went to see Dethklok & Mastodon in concert.
-I'm going to Japan.

Thank you, life.

I've been revising my graphic novel lately and I've started to become consumed once again by self doubt. I'm really going out on a limb with my education, and it's a big risk. Comic book jobs aren't exactly stable or well-paying, you know? And more than that, I don't just want a pay check. I want to be good.

And I'm starting to think I'm not. I keep hitting my head against the wall about the same old things, and I can't move forward because I'm worrying too much. I think it would help if I had someone else to glean feedback from, but I haven't really found anyone who is both reliable and whose opinion I respect. Blargh.

Back to writing.

Negative six pounds, w00t!

And they are delicious. Anyhoo, boring life/comic/doll stuff after the cut.

( Woot )

Whoo!

So, getting ready to start junior year at SCAD. I'm a little nervous; I really need to buckle down and work on my storytelling/motivation, but I've improved loads in the last year. I'll post some stuff soon.

Also, started diet with Mom that's working really well. It's more of a lifestyle change + healthy foods and exercise, so whoo! Lost six pounds in about a week and a half, which technically isn't healthy, but I'm sure the spike will stop soon and I'll plateau.

Doll stuff: the other day I finally buckled down and sewed a pair of jeans for my E-an. Considering I haven't used my sewing machine in years, I think they came out really well. Pics later.

Also bought some Everpurple eyes off a seller on DoA for the cheap ($30!). These are the first urethane eyes I've bought, so I'm excited. I like the Soom eyes, but if these are good, I'll probably switch to them. Also trying to finish her character, so I've got to order a wig soon, and go fabric shopping. The jeans really boosted my confidence (and I forgot how much I enjoy sewing), so I want to make lots of nice separates for her.

After I get her relatively finished, I'll start saving for an Akando. That might be a while, though. >.>

I JUST HIT PAGE 100 OF MY GRAPHIC NOVEL.

Hells yeah. :D

So, I think I've finally got a nice long working outline for the first arc of the Imperial Realm series. Lots of things are changed, but the essential plot points (armors, Dowen, evil Ro7, etc.) are there without too many plot holes. Working on scripting it into a graphic novel as we speak. If I can get it done, I want to try to do the first volume as my senior project and pitch it to a company. The epic-space-opera is getting somewhere! :D

Seriously, I love scripting because it has a FORMAT. And that's awesome. I like guidelines. I work well with structure and direction. So, roughly ten years after the RP that inspired it all, I'll hopefully have something to show for it on editor's day. Whoo!

http://mustbemissa.deviantart.com/


Whoo. I've never been involved in an argument publicly online before. o_o;;

I mean, I understand her point. I just...think it's kind of a stupid rule. Yeah, most edits are recolors and that sucks, but mine clearly aren't. I just like RO sprites! I think they're cute. >.>

Also, I never knew the pixel art community was so snarky about it, not that I've been on too many forums. I mostly used to frequent places about sprite edits, so I had no idea it was so heavily looked down upon.

So, now that I'm feeling less venomous, I'd just like to profess my love for Rodolphe Guenoden. Oh man, I love this guy's stuff. His figures are so dynamic and fluid, but you kind of expect that from an animator. His comic work is still fantastic, though, and I think I'm gonna do a series of drawings trying to emulate the figures. His website is here: http://www.rodguen.com/

So. Much. Awesome.


I've also got to put together a pastiche on Hugo Pratt. Pratt's stuff is huge in Europe, and he's basically been ripped off by a ton of guys over here, including Frank Miller's art style (also, I kind of hate Frank Miller but he can go make another million).

Anyhoo, continuing on my quest to become a comic book artist, I've also got fifteen pages of roughs to do this week and I need to finish inking a Marc Schultz drawing. I've found that I really enjoy inking when everything's said and done, so I could definitely go any way into the industry that I want. Maybe not lettering. My handwriting kind of sucks.

To anyone else having trouble with inking, though, drop your Micron and go buy a Deleter nib pen. Seriously. The Niko and G nibs will save your LIFE (for reals). I mean, at the end of the day, everyone's got their own style, but the nib pen is definitely the tool I find the most versatile. There's a lot to be said for brush inking, but I find I don't have as much control.

As for comic book writing, my scripting class is definitely interesting, to say the least. And the format's actually pretty fun! I'm working on a five-page zombie script at the moment, but it has to really be off the wall. Who knows?

Before I begin my rant, I just want to say that I'm fairly impressed that LJ automatically saves drafts now. Yay!

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So I just got back from the hospital. I had to go because I had a high fever (i03 or so) and I was really dehydrated. It sucked. At least I didn't have to stay overnight, so I can actually go to my classes tomorrow and not fail.

Oh. My. GOD.

http://www.iplehouse.net/shop/step1.php?number=1346

Agh, now I want 2 out of 3 of the EID? Well, there goes any plans for a Soom (or switching to minis, for that matter).

My supa-easy quarter just suddenly spewed homework everywhere. I spent the weekend finishing up some environments for sequential, and I've still got to finish math and read Karl Marx for tomorrow. I've got another paper coming up in Comp soon (wtf, six weeks with nothing, then cramming all four into four weeks?), as well as looking into the revision of the second.

Waiting on Daingerfield mods, still; I can't see any of the logs so I can start trying to find a jumping off point. Also, I need to set up the character profile.

Still thinking of applying to play Ofdensen in the other RP, because I really, really like him and I think it'll be fun. He's a bit of a change of pace from a lot of my characters.

I've been offline a lot lately; it seems like I've got homework parties everywhere. Luckily tomorrow night I just have to work on thumbnails for the next project, then I'll be done for the week and get things done online.

Cowboy Bebop


Samurai Champloo

This is awesome. I, of course, love both equally.

The shower just burned my foot. Holy hell. Why do we need a microwave when we have a supply of boiling water right in our bathroom?

Aggh.

I thought about you today, for the first time in a while. I'm glad we got out of that town, because when I go back, all I see are ghosts and memories of you. I'd be lying if I said you weren't my first love, because I did love you. The air was just turning chill that October when we sat on the monkey bars, side by side. I remember you were facing forward when you said you wanted to kiss someone.

I wished to God that someone meant me.

I remember how long and blue the shadows got as the sun died, and when it filtered through my hair, you said I looked like an angel. You were the first person who told me I was beautiful. How was I supposed to not fall in love with you?

Maybe in another time, another place, it could have worked. Maybe I'm crazy for hoping that, even after all these years, you still think of me of sometimes in October, because I still do. Sometimes, driving alone at night, I feel a deep, hollow aching in my chest when I remember your face, your voice, when you said, "But she's in Georgia."


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The two hour drive home always felt glorious. Hot Springs was not a city that sprawled endlessly, so driving beyond the city limits felt almost like bursting forth from a dam. I was giddy as I watched the sun fade into dappled patches on the road as traffic withered until it was just me and the winding country highway. The trees were thick, then thinned into fields briefly befort the forest reclaimed the road. Except for a few houses that dotted the land along the way, green signs and closed gas stations were the only semblances of civilization. I drove that road twice a week, week after week, until I slowly grew to know every mile and city along the way. Malvern was a trap with an absurdly low speed limit for its four lanes, but I could speed through Tulip and Princeton once the road bottle necked back into two. The logging and gravel trucks were only a hazard near Holly Springs, where the highway split to go off to Arkadelphia and the Interstate. The Eagle Mills sign meant I was only fifteen minutes from Camden.
It was April when I grew comfortable enough with the road to take risks. The month-long drizzle that was March had passed, and it was just warm enough that I could fly over the hills with my windows down and rock music pounding from my speakers. I hardly had to pay attention anymore as I drove. I knew where the next turn was, which curve was deceptively sharp, where I could pass cars at breakneck speed and be just fine. The yellow and orange wildflowers blurred before me as I drove with pure joy. Eventually, 50 miles an hour seemed pretty slow. Sixty was average, but 70 wasn't too bad. When I really felt daring, or the song on the radio really began to pulse feverishly, I responded with eighty. The turns were so sharp they'd toss my purse from one side of the floorboard to the other.

I'm apparently really flexible--something I didn't know. Annnd I saw my roommate's boyfriend naked, which is something I never really wanted to see.

Anyway, I realized that while I check this thing nearly every day, I don't post much. So there. >.>

Toki! <3